being home leaves room for much introspection

thinking too much? not really. i rather call it reflection. 2011 has been a different year for me. i think it has truly been the year of leaving the past behind. being who i truly want to be. turning twenty. no longer a teenager. trying to grow up at the right pace, taking risks and jumping through life with eyes forward and not regretting. At least trying not to regret. After all, that cliche is true. “life’s too short for regrets, you only have 1. so live it up”.

2011 has been a year of choices, of picking what i really want in life. the friends i want to stay in touch with because i know that they are irreplaceable. the new friendships that have formed over the past three years that i know will be my best friends forever. following the God I love to the ends to the earth. knowing that what i’m studying now might probably not be my future career path.

trusting.

waiting.

doing and going on and on. Turning here and there, stumbling sometimes. Running into obstacles and dead ends. Failing time and time again, aching with pain. Bloody knees and a tired mind, a tear-streaked face because there is no will to move. but through this all, reaching up. for the hands that i know are there to pick me up time & time again. the strong arms that embrace and take me in, telling me that it’s okay child. i am here. i am with you. always until eternity.

and so i am living now. one soul among the 7 billion. no one particularly special, just another human being trying to pursue the desires and passions carried inside her heart.

this is me

and i am unafraid

of who i will become.